Dear friends, relatives, loved ones,

Lately, I have come to the realization that I am increasingly disappointed in myself. I feel as though, despite how hard I have been working, I have accomplished nothing. I could be doing more. The days have become very mundane and I find myself almost always bored. If I am not at work or eating dinner at my girlfriends, I am usually vegging out in front of the TV or computer. And I can honestly say I have no idea what I am doing whilst vegging.

This is no good. It must be changed. And at the risk of sounding dramatic, if I don't change this problem I fear I may become addicted to my jaded laziness. I am there for swearing off everything on the internet besides information I require to achieve certain goals I have set out to accomplish yet fell terribly short from. I am also going to be avoiding television as much as I can, opting to read a book.

After reading my last two paragraphs, them do come off over dramatic, but take this into consideration. Currently I have two expensive basses I never use, one of which the elements have ravaged and I fear may be beyond repair, along with an expensive amp. Various other musical equipment including other instruments and recording gear, yet... I've never written a damn song or ever played in a band.
I have numerous pieces of exotic woods, cut and planned and collecting dust in my workplace. Several small woodworking projects started, yet none finished. I have spent a large sum of money on music equipment, wood and woodworking tools and paintball gear and have yet to achieve any goals other than to grow a small amount of debt.
I have a respectable amount of knowledge in these areas and yet put none of it to use. And it agitates me to NO END that I have become envious of some people I know for what they have accomplished and makes me FURIOUS that I am now comparing my perceived success to others instead of focusing on my own.
Out of all the wood and tools, bits of metal, beautiful instruments and books and books, there is not one blade forged, not one instrument carved, and not one song written.

I feel I have shamed myself and let myself down. And in an effort to change these facts I am setting myself these goals:

1. Brew a batch of beer. Yes, I know it sounds silly but, it will be the first and easiest thing to do. And I'm the type of person that likes to make everything himself, as opposed to buying it. It must be the punk in me.

2. Make SOMETHING out of wood, pertaining to music. I would like to finish one of the two bass bows I have started, but I will settle for anything.

3. Become more active. I took a severe downhill dive after I stopped playing paintball, as it was my only psychical activity I did. I have since consumed too much bad food and imbibed copious amounts of beer and it has started to take its toll.

4. Be more productive at work. I become sidetracked VERY easily, like RIGHT NOW as I am typing this out instead of working. My family needs me to be better than I am.

5. Write/record FIVE songs. This will be the most difficult to achieve. I am only allowing ONE of these songs to be someone else's to hopefully make it alittle easier on me.


Due to these goals, you will not see me online for awhile. If you would like to keep in touch with me you can email me at SeanFromNH@gmail.com. I will be posting updates on my blogspot along with pictures, and everyone LOVES pictures. I apologize if this makes it more difficult for any of you to keep in touch with me, but I guarantee that if you email me you will hear back.